have you ever had one of those days when you wake up and already feel defeated? like nothing is going to go your way… so why bother getting out of bed? one of those days when you just want to cry?
well friends, that’s how my day started. but to my surprise, those feelings didn’t last! (and thank goodness for that, because those days are AWFUL.)
although i woke up feeling tired and defeated, i made the decision that i would go to the gym. and let me tell you, going to the gym was the last thing i wanted to do! HOWEVER, the gym is something i HAVE to do. it’s not a choice anymore. it’s a part of my lifestyle.
(and i’ll find any excuse have to wear my pink and purple nike sneaks!)
when i got to the gym, i was hit with a flood of emotion.
as i pulled into the parking lot of the gym that had become like a second home to me over the years, i started panicking. yes, i was at the same gym where i had once been employed… the same gym that helped me lose 50 pounds at one point. so why was i freaking out?
my head was filled with questions and doubt. i was asking “HOW did i ever get myself back to this weight?!” and “WHY was it so easy to gain all of this weight?!” i think started questioning myself — “will i ever be able to achieve my goals?!” “what will i do if i fail again?!”
i sat in my car in the parking lot for a good 10 minutes. crying.
i’m not sure what happened next, but a voice inside my head told me that i NEEDED to stop crying and that i needed to get myself INTO THAT GYM. no matter what.
out of nowhere, the tears stopped… and i actually said outloud “okay, it’s time for me to go inside and start moving those mountains.”
this moment reminded me of the quote — “faith is taking the first step, even when you don’t see the whole staircase.” right now, i’m kind of feeling like every day is a first step in my weight loss journey. it’s always one step closer to reaching my dreams.
i know it was God who was there with me at that moment. who else could have provided me with such amazing strength?
i actually amazed myself at what i accomplished once i started working out. i did my usual routine, but instead of leaving when i was done, i wanted to do something out of the ordinary that would challenge myself…
now friends, we all know how much i despise the stair master machine. the first time i did it, i was only able to do 5 minutes on that thing! the next week i pushed harder and ended up doing 1o minutes!
but you know what?! TODAY i stayed on that stair master machine for 20 MINUTES. (let me tell you —> it was NOT easy. that machine makes me sweat like no other. sweat everywhere…)
but i was SO proud of myself! it was one of those things that made me stop and think… at that moment, i realized that ANYTHING is possible if you put your mind to it.
i could have easily skipped the gym all together today… but i didn’t! and that right there is an accomplishment in itself!
i kind of feel like i can accomplish anything now. all i need to do is BELIEVE that i can do it. it ALL comes down to our ATTITUDE. a positive attitude will end in positive results… whereas a negative attitude will end in negative results (which none of us wants!)
i guess the lesson learned today is that you don’t need to let your negative attitude reflect on what you’re capable of. you can SO easily turn a negative thought into something positive!
yes, i woke up in a funk, but i CHOSE to get out of it! and friends, i KNOW you can do the same thing. so, next time you wake up feeling defeated, remember that it doesn’t need to be a reflection on how the rest of your day will turn out.
i have so much faith in every single one of you. the world is yours. yes, YOURS.