i think it has already been established that i might be the worst blogger in the history of blogs. okay, maybe not that bad. it’s been a while! but – i’m here now and that’s all that matters!
just a quick update before i get into what inspired me to write tonight in the first place.
i’m doing wonderful!!!! in fact, i can honestly say that i have never been happier in my entire life. i’ve learned so much about myself in the past couple months. it’s been life changing.
i’m still working out. i’m still eating healthy.
however, that’s not all that my life is about anymore.
through all of the calorie counting and hours spent in the gym, i came to realize that what i was doing (tracking everything i put in my mouth. posting it on facebook. working out until i burned at least 1000 calories. posting that on facebook) was becoming an unhealthy obsession.
i needed help. so i seeked help!
and now here i am today. happy & healthy! i have found a healthy balance and have realized that i am exercising and eating right for ME. not for anyone else. i don’t need approval anymore.
i feel free. free from the obsessions.
now back to what i came here to discuss!
today as i was leaving the gym, i stopped to talk to a couple of friends. both of whom work in the fitness industry. to put it simply, we talked about how:
everyone has different reasons for exercising.
my gym is an absolutely wonderful place. there are members who are fit. there are members who are overweight. young. old. injured. broken. you name it.
but somehow we are all there. all under the same roof. working towards goals.
some of us are there fighting for our lives.
some are there to heal emotional wounds.
some are there to gain confidence.
some are there to get buff & ripped.
whatever it may be, we are all there for a reason!
we don’t know each others stories.
most of the members in my gym don’t know that i have lost 90-something pounds. or that i once lacked self confidence. that i used to be afraid to exercise in public. that just the thought of bootcamp classes terrified me.
most of them don’t know where i started from.
the moral of our little discussion is that we DO NOT KNOW everyones story. so we absolutely should NOT be judging anyone. inside or outside of the gym! this stays true with ANY setting!
we, as human beings, should have no right to judge others.
also, we should NOT waste time comparing ourselves to others.
i can’t tell you how many times a day i get asked the questions: “how much do you weigh?” or “what size are you wearing now?”
does it matter? i mean… does it REALLY matter?
no. it doesn’t. both size and weight are just numbers.
(believe me, it took me a while to realize this.)
and those numbers don’t reflect who i am.
or how much i have accomplished.
or how good of a person i am.
i don’t exercise for numbers (anymore.)
i exercise because it makes me happy. pushing myself to an uncomfortable place feels INCREDIBLE. there are times when i feel unstoppable. and the feeling i get after a workout is better than anything. working out gives me a high. it stabilizes my mood. it gives me CONFIDENCE! it makes me want to keep going.
exercising and eating healthy are just a part of my life now! i don’t have to think twice about it. it’s just what i do. and i LOVE it!
everyone has a story.
(that we don’t know.)
everyone has a history.
(that we don’t know.)
everyone has a different reason for exercising.